For the first time since November I feel today I have some sort of stability. November was mainly a month of flying too high. Then the crash came that thrust me into a perpetual winter of darkness.
On this first day of spring I'm in a good place as the sun shines out in the world.
A lot went wrong for me during the winter. So many urged me to get signed off long term sick. Yet I didn't and somehow weathered the storm.
I'm listening to Mozart and reading. I have just finished re-reading Charon's Ferry my second published book. Going back over the two books in that dark winter provoked emotion I did not expect. There were tears at times.
As my small boat rests in calm waters and in harbour at least for today I feel good.
In two weeks I will be seeing my old psychiatrist. I'm hoping they take me on as they should. Whether that is the outcome I will get I don't know. I need to be back in the system. In fact I should never have been discharged in the first place.
Shortly I'm making a rendang paste. There will be beef rendang for dinner. I'm hoping my friend Danielle will be joining me to share it. Tomorrow there will be roast pheasant for lunch then a fiery Thai green papaya salad for supper.
Enjoy the sun while it shines.
I Heard a Voice.
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