You must accept my recent silence. Not sure who is reading anyway. Maybe no one.
The truth is that the last month has been really tough physically and mentally. Not a good combination.
When I went to London a month ago I knew it could trigger a bumpy ride. And it did.
What I didn't expect was that at a time of vulnerability someone I care so much about walked out of my life.
That I've made catastrophic decisions on friendships and relationships is a given, well documented on here, in my books, in my guilt and in my shame. But I struggle to understand why someone would walk away without any explanation. That sadly is what just happened to me.
A lot of my friends are very angry with her. All agree I didn't deserve that and that it is not something I've done but more about her. But it still hurts. Really bad.
Alongside this hammer blow I have been really sick with what the doctors think is a virus. They signed me off last Thursday. Slowly getting better I think. No longer have fever or headache. The cough is less dry and painful.
Life has not been kind to me this last month. But I will prevail.
I Heard a Voice.
No comments:
Post a Comment